you'll die trying to live this down

cool...cool...water
2001-12-22 / 5:34 p.m.

ive been drinking a lot of water lately...i never really liked it before, but besides the fact that it doesnt really have a taste, it gives you a purified feeling.

i dont exactly remember when my last entry was...wednesday, i believe. i went to the orthodontist thursday and got my wires changed... my teeth are still relatively sore, but my most annoying part is this huge part of the wire that like, sticks up. it's impossible to explain, but my lip always gets caught on it whenever i smile. im told ill have this wire for 4-5 months, so i suppose ill have to get used to it.

last night was the gift exchange. i already knew kristen had me because nobody can keep a secret, but she got me a nice watch and a sparkily candle. that was about the extent of my fun there. im sick of always being blamed and pointed out for things that everyone else does already. two or so people said something about me eating nick will's demonstration food, or something??? i was like, what the hell? first of all... everyone was eating it. secondly, i had two pieces or something. it was just sitting there behind me, and it was the extra stuff, and why does it matter anyway? it just absolutely blew me away that someone would actually TELL someone else that i ate a fucking piece of food! when other people were eating it too...what in god's name is wrong with the human race? it makes no sense at all. most of the time, i hate all of them. if i had the strength to do it, i would break ties with them. they dont really act like my friends, so what's the use?

jamie imed me yesterday...

him [1:00 PM]: hey

LHO Swim [1:00 PM]: heyy

him[1:01 PM]: what are you doin?

LHO Swim [1:01 PM]: nothin at all...you?

him [1:01 PM]: nothin.....bored

him[1:02 PM]: what are you doin tonight?

LHO Swim [1:02 PM]: well at 8 im going to a friends house... nothing before that, though

him [1:03 PM]: cool

LHO Swim [1:03 PM]: what about you?

him [1:03 PM]: i think im doin sumthin with kelly

LHO Swim [1:04 PM]: cool, cool

him [1:04 PM]: yup

him [1:04 PM]: gtg ttyl

LHO Swim [1:05 PM]: ok, ill see ya

this is what i dont get...was he asking me what i was doing tonight because he wanted to do something with me, or was he asking me because he wanted to let me know he was going somewhere with kelly? i have a notion he was going to ask me to go, too... damn party. why has he taken precedence over everything in my life?

im going to try to finish the book im reading now so i can get started with my extra credit books. you know, i really do like to read. even though i need the extra credit, i most likely wouldnt do it if it involved doing something that i DIDNT like.

my side glitter sweatpants came in the mail today! despite them being way too long, they're simply beautiful.

what a way to end an entry.

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself