you'll die trying to live this down

sugar sugar... ohh, honey honey
2002-03-05 / 8:45 p.m.

if you'll notice, i now seperated my diaryrings into two separate pages because the other one took waaay too long to load. so this entry is partially just a cover-up of that. i dont really have much to say.

yesterday, track started. it was basically just a meeting and a little bit of running, but i didnt get that stupid athletic form signed so i technically couldnt practice :x it was kind of weird, because me, kristen, lynnae, ashley, noel and amanda all forgot to get ours signed and NOBODY ELSE did. emma was the only one of us who remembered, but she thought there were OTHER papers we needed signed so she left early too. it was only after everyone else left and went to bean to start running when she realized that she could've run too. [shrug] it was about 20 degrees out, so i didnt mind missing the practice. today, we actually did some stuff- drills + a lot of running, some of it outside, and it's still like 25 degrees.

i did scheduling today! im taking psychology, elementary tutoring, sat math, honors english, world cultures, pdm, gym, honors chem, and spanish III. i know dad is going to flip on me when he hears about the tutoring, but it's not like he can do anything about it.

alright. i hate it when people try to make you feel even worse about something than you already do, except they make themselves out to be supportive. let's say i said, 'i cant have that much ice cream because im lactose intolerant.' and the other person says, 'oh my god!!! that sucks sooo bad. i would hate to be in your situation- in fact, i dont think i could live without ice cream because it's the best thing EVER! i especially love chocolate chip...so much so, that i think im going to the store right now to buy a pint. wanna come watch me eat it as you sit by and salivate?' ok, so obviously that's exaggerated. but people do it all the time, and whether it's a subconscious thing or not, it bugs the hell out of me. (by the way, i CAN have ice cream and im not lactose intolerant.)

tomorrow i have to take that stupid fbla test. im really starting to NOT want to go to this thing.

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself