I am truly the biggest procrastinator. yesterday i: picked up my check and turned in my work hours, visited my grandma, watched three movies (about a boy, the banger sisters, and the shawshenk redemption which was on abc [sorry jess]), gotten online, and showered even though i didnt need one, all to avoid ap history homework. i also went to a y swim meet to get some more nhs hours and kind of scraped a car, but neither of those were out of avoidance. i feel kinda bad about the car damage, and i have less faith in me as a good driver, but it was the first time something like this happened. and i do realize that i havent even had my license for a month yet. i take full resonsibility, although the snow on the ground played a part because i couldnt see the parking lines so i parked too close. yeah. we dont know what the damage cost will be yet, but we might not go through insurance if it isnt very much. anyway. i finished 1 and a half chapters today. i really despise it.
this whole thing about having a crush is...somewhat not believable to me. i do think that part of it is, yeah, physical attraction. but i dont even know if he feels the same way, and even if he did, he's completely unobtainable. and maybe some of it has to do with the fact that i havent 'crushed' (i hate that word, by the way, it makes things sound so juvenile...though i guess it is.) on anyone in over a year, really, and so many people i know are involved in a relationship or were over the course of the year, so maybe a part of it is desperation. we really converse well, though, and that's important to me.
we had senior night wednesday, so regular season swim meets are over with. good because: not everyone goes on to districts-> less people in the lanes at practice. bad because: the practices will be extrememly difficult for a week or two here. friday we did a 700, 2 50's; 600, 4 50's; and 500, 6 50's. that type of workout is probably my least favorite, and it was made worse because the 50s were on fifty freaking seconds instead of a minute. ive decided that i want to go to y districts, which are on march 21. we checked it out and im eligible, so i just have to go to next week's meet and championships, neither of which i really want to go to. because they're on saturdays.
hmm... that fbla competition thing was on friday. i swear, the majority of the people there are idiots because i had no idea what i was doing (honestly) and got 2nd. i dont even want to go to states anymore, but i guess i will. they have good desserts.
i guess im going to help serve a banquet at my church on valentine's day. at least it's SOMETHING to do, and it can get me more nhs hours... i should be done soon then. it's not like i have a possibility of a date, so i just said that i would definately be there. :/
my body hurts. im all ache-y and stuff. goodbye.
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