you'll die trying to live this down

i said 'hello bliss, im susan'
June 02, 2003 / 9:44 pm

donuts :D
yay for bake sales!

alright, going to the whole way back to tuesday…it was nuts. we went to noel’s to get in the hot tub instead of staying around at the middle school. it was fun but wow, the conversation was really obscene. there were these roofers over at the next house working, and im pretty sure they heard everything that was said. heh. i was going to go with them to the milky way for ice cream, but i had cheer practice…and that didn’t go well. you know, i was just minding my business, backing for tara, and that was going really well- and suddenly they switched me to another group. i got really frustrated with them- because im inexperienced with backing, and a lot of things didn’t go. i felt like it was all my fault- which, maybe it was.. because they didn’t seem to have any problems before me. i really think the fact that im short is going to become an issue…with the new bases, im having even more trouble controlling the stunt, im on my tippy toes, and therefore it’s wobbly. tensions run high when things go wrong, and i usually end up regretting saying or doing things in retrospect; but usually at the time i feel like im justified because someone pissed me off. i wouldn’t get snippy or rude unless someone was that way towards me, or maybe because i thought my position was threated or i was being singled out/wrongly accused of something. i felt like that then- felt like the spot was being put on me, that i was being asked to do impossible things. anyway, it’s resolved for the moment because the mounter and i talked it out, we both apologized (even though she wasn’t the person i was kinda pissed at), but im still worried ill suck at it. i only came for about 45 minutes on thursday, but i didn’t back at all- i actually ended up basing for the first time this season. we did basket tosses, and susan did toe touch ones for the first time ever…they were good :D. then i had work and only had to get in for the second class, so that was good.

wednesday i worked at open swim…nothing too exciting there. thursday i went in for senior pictures, which was actually fun- i have no idea how i looked though. he kept saying stuff like, ‘oh, that one’s going to turn out great’, but id imagine he says that to everyone to keep them happy. but i loved pretty much all of the poses, backgrounds, and props. he kind of put a damper on my career goals, though…he asked me what i wanted to major in, and i said communications…he goes off on this story about how his sons or daughters or someone he knows majored in that and they havent been able to find work, and i wont make any money if i do that- i was like, gee, thanks. what a way to cheer your paying customer up. he was nice otherwise, though. i go in the 16th next month to look at the originals and choose a package.

the whole thing with creepy chris II (i decided he was worthy of being called that after all) is effectively over. last monday he imed me and scared me by saying things like:

[creepy chris II]: i'll pick ya up and take ya

[creepy chris II]: IS THAT COOL?

[creepy chris II]: my plans were to on friday ,, get you to know me for me,,, and maybe i'd win ya over with my ability to be a gentlemen

[creepy chris II]: Maybe sometime ill show you want a gentleman is like

[creepy chris II]: And maybe sometime ill show you love…IF YOU LET ME

:-o

tuesday i found out that he’s been saying almost the exact same things to libby (she has a boyfriend for Christ’s sake) except that he doesn’t want anything serious to happen with her. and he was ALSO trying to go after barbie. but yesterday, me and libby told him we basically didnt want anything to do with him, and he was like, 'yeah, me too', although i think he was just trying to make himself look good.

im getting sick of getting called off of work. i was supposed to go in for a full day sunday, but they didnt even open the waterpark. i want to see hot jon, alright? and i dont even know if im still going to their cd release party thing...i wont if no one else does.

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself