you'll die trying to live this down

dont call me susie
June 06, 2003 / 1:06 am

so, how do you like it? my first not-self-designed layout. ive just become too lazy to do it anymore.

i really like this whole getting home from school at 1:30 thing. its very nice. but yesterday i came home and fell asleep till 3:40...and practice started at 3:30 :-x i got there at 3:45, and i was worried i was going to have to do a bunch of toe touches (10 for each minute, although i don’t think they’d make me to 150) but niki wasn’t there yet either. i based today- because jenn wasn’t there, we merged groups. the day before, she was, so i backed the group…anyway, today we did sequences with heather, but it just wouldn’t fly with chelsea. i think im going to go to another specialist for my ankle- after 8 months, it hasn’t gotten any better. all that gates guy did was give me a brace, and he didn’t really seem to know what was wrong with it, so i want to try somewhere else.

sarah and i were supposed to go into bennigans today, but she had to cancel…so justin and i just drove around for awhile. emma and i might go to the cd release thing tomorrow. she said it depended if she was finished packing yet for the beach…since she leaves the next day.

what are we getting ourselves into with ap english? we had to take this practice essay test over lunch yesterday, and we had to compare and contrast these two poems. i HATE interpreting poetry. hate it. and that’s like one third of the ap grade, although i probably wont take it anyway. we had a meeting about summer homework and such. we have to read the great gatsby, odieus something or other, and a book of our choice that’s on a list…and there are other ones she gave us that we don’t necessarily have to read- im reading one of those right now. the awakening, it’s called. 2 and a half more days of school…we don’t do anything except watch movies, have parties, play cards (i learned how to play rummy today!), eat, and sit around, so im really kind of ambivalent about it. ill actually be working next week- if it ever warms up.

i don’t think i mentioned julie brady before…she’s bonnie’s oldest sister, only 21, and she’s in really bad shape. she was hospitalized about two months ago due to some serious illness, needed a lot of transplants, finally got them, but something happened to them, so now she needs a liver. i think. i don’t really know the details, but it isn’t looking too good. i don’t know her, but i know bonnie obviously, and her other older sister kristen. they’re having a blood drive for her, but i cant give any because im not 17...it would really be a challenge to do that, anyway. man, I get queasy just sitting here and thinking about it. i think i will do it when i can, though. maybe.

ive kind of given up all hope of hanging out with he-who-has-no-name in the near future.. isn’t hasn’t happened in two months, so it doesn’t look good. im not hysterical about it or anything, just a little sad. but i figure it’ll be less painful if i just resign myself to reality…hope can hurt.

SATs Saturday :-(

this is all i have to say? and want to be able to some day call myself a writer? bleh. ‘dear diary’ has been more insightful than ive been lately.

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself