you'll die trying to live this down

march is too far away
November 09, 2003 / 8:54 pm

really not enjoying cheerleading right now. upj did not go well yesterday, we had like four falls and didnt place for the first time in a long time. we got 6th out of 8 or something. people's spirits are down, and it's just not fun. our group is doing fine and hasnt had a fall yet this year...so yes, i really do wish the same people that have been falling, who can do it fine in warm-ups, and have a perfect run-through, wouldnt fall so much. im not bitter or anything, im just ready for it to be over. it's going to cut into swimming time, which starts tomorrow (which i would be excited about if not for the fact that we're commuting 45 minutes every day and the pool's dirty-looking and probably cold) but still. cheer practice is from 6-8 tomorrow while swimming is over at 5:30, which means we'll have to get out like an half an hour early. tuesday is the dc trip, and then wednesday is peer jury- i wasnt going to do it, but there's free food. and some people that will be there are people i happen to know, heh. for the whole egging deanna's house incident. oh, and yan-yel will be there, im sure.

after upj things got a lot better. i met aaron at the second boulevard bk and followed her up to ashley's house. ashley then somehow shauffered us to st. francis even though she had no clue where she was going. but we made it there without getting lost except for thinking a correctional facility was the college, and turning into a church with a creepy older man strolling though the parking lot. anyway, the reason we went was for the lfj/other people show, and that was fun. i got home at like 2:30 though, and had to go to church in la manana. ha, i just realized manana is freakishly similiar to banana. except for the tilde. cant get that in there. church was about all i did today except sleep more, watch disney, and read this book im almost done with called "sickened" about a girl who was made sick by her mother because she (the mother) craved attention from medical personnel. it's pretty messed up. it really IS sickening reading about some of the things both parents did to her, physically and emotionally.

i was just reading about these guided tours they're giving people who want to see the inner city. guided tours. like the people who live there are zoo animals or something. that's so...invasive. i wouldnt really have a problem with people traipsing out to see the country here, but i think i would if i lived in the bronx or something. it's kind of offensive. i mean, i would like to see those places too, but not with a freaking guide.

it really annoys me when people im me and ask me a question, and if i dont answer THAT second, they have to send another im with a ?. ILL GET TO YOU!!

so hollister opened up here. we went friday instead of going to see elf, which i wanted to see with a passion. but no one else really did, and i ran into people who said it ended up being sold out anyway. their clothes are freaskishly small in there. the larges are skin-tight on me and im not usually a large. and i didnt see any extra larges or anything. i did get a cute hoodie, though, with the money i was supposed to spend on a new outfit for the pittsburgh trip. ooh, and 'north'! i never buy cds anymore, but it was soco, so. ive listened to some of it. im supposed to burn it- and my compilation one which is really equivalent of their first album and other songs- for ashley, and she's gonna burn yellowcard and brand new for me. woo.

yeah. no more procrastination. time for another fun poem essay. only 2 more weeks to go! then we can start...something that isnt poetry. anything, i dont care. i dont even want to think about spanish class right now. i got a 87 on my last quiz, and the test we took on friday was about the hardest one ive ever taken. and i even studied! i know i did horribly.

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself