so this is the third entry ive written in the past couple of hours. i dont even know why. i guess im feeling kind of lost. i just talked to my dad about feeling guilty about the car thing...he basically reassured me that we should be fine. but then i just had this strange urge to cry, and i almost did, but then i stopped myself. or maybe the tears stopped themselves on their own, i dont know. who knows. suzy just talked to me and told me that she got accepted to penn state main and she's definately going!! that's so great, they told her she might not get in and she was stressing over it. she was so so so happy. since that's probably where im going to it'll be cool to have someone i already know, even though im sure im going to meet a lot of people. we'll maybe even have some classes together since we're going to be in the same department.
another thing i forgot to mention about today... the cavalier from the paper that i was so in love with yesterday? the one from roaring spring? we went up to see it this morning, and...alan keith owns it. i havent seen him in two years, probably. back when i was in 10th grade and he was a senior we had a little thing- im not even sure if you could call it that, but he used to pick me up for school (which was weird, he just showed up one day without calling or anything) and he even called me once, and then it fizzled out. i actually realized it was him about 30 seconds before we pulled into his driveway- i knew he lived out there, and i got around to thinking that it was the kind of car he's own, so i grabbed my cell and looked up his number bc it was still in there, and lo and behold, it was the number we'd called. the car was niice, but my dad didnt seem to think so, and i didnt feel all that comfortable with it, soo we left. i made an ass out of myself, by the way. i couldnt figure out how to turn off the windshield wipers.
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