you'll die trying to live this down

you want apologies?
January 13, 2004 / 6:57 pm

girl you might hold your breath
until your breathing stops forever...forever
the only thing you'll get
is this curse on your lips
i hope they taste of me forever dmy dad's off at some financial aid workshop in altoona to learn how to pay for my college education so i have the house to myself for awhile. hey, tomorrow is the first anniversary of my license. that's pretty cool; it's weird that ive been driving by myself for a whole year. we had a meet yesterday, and i did absolutely horribly. we won (which was good, main objective), but it was by far the worst meet of my season. my back time was like 2 seconds slower than ive done it in two or so years, which was kind of strategic but whatever, i still hate myself for it. and my 50 freestyle time is about 1 second slower than normal and 2 seconds from where it should be. im hoping that that was just a one time thing. kirstin was telling me how her boyfriend told her that he was going to propose to her next year on valentines day. it's so strange that people basically my age are getting MARRIED. that's considered such an adult thing to do, and im not even beginning to consider myself an adult. and i dont want to either, for that matter. yay for youth. yep, spanish oral final in two days. :-o <-- that's me, freaking out. "i gave you gonorrhea because i thought you'd have fun with it!"

i want to hate you half as much || as i hate myself